Staying strong amidst the chaos
As I sit here, I have two toddlers, running and jumping around the house. Their handy, craft time artwork speckles the living room floor. Crayons. Permanent markers. Shredded papers. My oldest child (eight years old) is busy creating Disney masterpieces after getting inspired by watching the PBS American Experience Walt Disney documentary. Kitchen stools have transformed into sketch tables. My youngest child (one year) enjoys her afternoon nap despite the arguing, screaming, and crashes from the toddlers.
I’m in the middle of a struggle. Despite what you may think, I’m not in a struggle with my child in the terrible twos or my child that’s conquering the fearsome threes. I’m struggling to find the balance — the balance between work and home. The best employee and the best mother. No, I don’t really want to be the best employee at my job, but I do want to give my best, especially since I teach 23 little Kindergarten scholars. No, I don’t want to be the BEST mom EVER. I DO want to be the best mom I can possibly be to the four amazing children with whom God has blessed me. Teaching and parenting are my two callings, and I want to give all of my children the best possible lives that I can.
I’m a planner. I’m an organizer. I like to have everything in its place. Being a teacher and a mother of four, I feel that those qualities help me strengthen my goals. Unfortunately I feel like I’m in a constant battle between giving all of myself to my kiddos at work and giving all of myself to my own children. When I’m at home, I should be spending all of my waking hours loving on and teaching my kids, right? Or maybe even the typical list of anyone who is trying to keep a house clean and together? Or maybe someone who wants to live a healthier lifestyle? Work should stay at work, right?
I struggle with the “working mom” syndrome every day. My work does come home with me. I’m unable to complete everything that needs to be completed before I leave work on Friday after my 10 hour workday. That’s the life of a teacher. Our lists are never ending. I have yet to find the magical balance between teacher world and home world. I’ve been told I should try yoga. I need to organize my life even more: diet, schedules, finances, positive outlook, etc.
Through this blog series, I’m going to attempt to share how I triumph over the “working mom” struggle. My goal is to stay positive as I try various techniques and strategies to conquer the struggle and give my best to both my students, colleagues, children and family members. I plan on sharing what works for me and what doesn’t.
Disclaimer: My goals and what would bring me joy as a mother and wife seems to be different from the “normal” standards in today’s society. I’m more traditional. I’ll save that for another post.
Feel free to follow along in my journey to find a happy balance between work and family.